Wow, I don’t know, this morning, I just don’t know. I haven’t been reading the news and then when I do read it I get freaked out. I guess the price cap on insulin is gone now. Scary. Convicted rapist in Whitehouse. Scary. My friend Jan has lost 18 pounds on Weight Watchers only ten more pounds to go! Exciting and wonderful. My yoga teacher, has stage 3 breast cancer. Scary! But an 80% chance of recovery per statistics, EXCITING. My husband is off to the Native Garden world where he gets to be an expert for like 8 hours. This makes him so happy and joyful, and that makes me happy. The Tesla trucks scare me when I see them on the road, they look so predatory.
When I was a kid, I had faith in my mind. I was a very good student and then I kindof lost my mind, lots of trauma, so I’ve been a little doubtful of it ever since.
What do I have faith in? Getting up and trying again. That sounds so trite. Participating. I have a friend who says, and I’m sure she got this quote from someone, that the time to make a decision about someone is … never. I like that. Connie is a much kinder person than I am. I have faith in Connie’s kindness.
I have faith in my dog, Wiggins, loyalty. I believe in the oxidation/reduction process and photosynthesis. I had mentioned to someone how odd, and incredible it was to me that Bob Dylan wrote so beautifully about things that, as a middle class Jewish kid, he couldn’t have experienced. The response to this was, “makes you believe in reincarnation doesn’t it?” I don’t think I have faith in that. But that’s the only explanation that makes sense to me.
I hope that kindness and reasonableness come out ahead, not only in our nation but the world, but I just don’t know.
In conclusion, I think the only thing I really have faith in is Connie’s kindness.